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Title: The Holiday [18/18]
Author: [ profile] sunsetmog
Fandom: Panic! at the Disco
Pairing: Brendon Urie / Spencer Smith
Rating: NC-17 overall.
Word count: 477 (this part) 74,000 (overall)
Warnings: None
Notes: Thank you to [ profile] hermette for the beta. Any remaining errors are my own. For [ profile] ohohstarryeyed.

Further notes can be found in part one. Also posted here at AO3.

Accompanying mix available here.

Inspired by The Holiday. Sort of. Um.

Summary: It's three months later.

Previously: [I] [II] [III] [IV] [V] [VI] [VII] [VIII] [IX] [X] [XI] [XII] [XIII] [XIV] [XV] [XVI] [XVII]


"It's March twenty-fourth, motherfucker," Brendon sang as he let himself into their house. "March twenty-fourth, March twenty-fourth." He dumped two pizza boxes on the coffee table.

Spencer was instant-messaging Gareth on his laptop from the couch. "Gareth says hi," he said, as Brendon leaned over the back of the couch to kiss Spencer on the corner of his mouth. Spencer reached up to slide his hand into Brendon's hair, keeping him near. "He says he's learned a new chord."

"Awesome," Brendon said, grinning, leaning in to kiss Spencer hello again. "How many's that, now?"

"Six," Spencer said. "He can pretty much take over the world with six chords."

"Tell him that," Brendon said. "And then tell him that I love him, but I'm making you put the laptop down so we can go and have sex and eat pizza. In that order."

Spencer grinned and obediently typed the message into the window.

Gareth typed lollollol back, and then, hi, B. Bye, B. Have good sex. Griff says hi.

Brendon snorted and pushed down the lid of the laptop. "Come on," he said. "Upstairs. I want to blow you."

"Hmmmm," Spencer said, pretending to think about it. "I've lined up Mythbusters on Netflix."

"Upstairs," Brendon said, rolling his eyes. "Why am I with you, I don't even know."

"Because you love me," Spencer told him, letting himself be pushed upstairs. "You love me, and you want to blow me—"

"Yeah, yeah," Brendon said. He wrapped an arm around Spencer's waist, stumbling them both into the bedroom. He stopped in the doorway, eyes going wide. "Holy shit, Spencer."

Spencer shrugged awkwardly. "It's March twenty-fourth. Three months."

In the middle of the bed was a ring box, a picture of the two of them in Wales, and a note that just said marry me for real this time in black sharpie.

Brendon's breath hitched and he wrapped his arms around Spencer's shoulders, burying his face in Spencer's neck. Spencer let out a breath and hugged back. It had been three months, and it hadn't always been easy, and it hadn't all been good days, but it was still by far the best relationship that Spencer had ever had. He loved Brendon, and it still felt like it had back in Wales. Like they were married already. That they were doing this backwards. That choosing to get married after three months wasn't too soon, it was way too late.

They'd already had the honeymoon, after all.

"Well?" Spencer said, after a moment. He was pretty sure he couldn't bear not knowing any longer. "Marry me?"

"Motherfucker," Brendon said, without pulling away. "I was going to ask you."

Spencer snorted, and tilted Brendon's chin up, leaning in to press a kiss to Brendon's open mouth. "So," he said. "You have any idea where you want to go for our honeymoon?"

There are 44 comments on this entry. (Reply.)
fleurrochard: (adorable while giggly)
posted by [personal profile] fleurrochard at 08:44pm on 04/06/2012
<3! <3! <3! <3! <3! <3!
<3! <3! <3! <3! <3! <3!
ext_16050: (Panic - New Perspective)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:55am on 12/06/2012
Thank you so much for reading, bb. <33
posted by [identity profile] at 09:41pm on 04/06/2012
Yay!!!! I love them. I can't believe this ended up at 74,000 words! That's so crazy.

I can't wait to go back and read it in it's entirety. How awesome!

ext_16050: (Panic - married boyfriends hearthands)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:56am on 12/06/2012
I can't believe I once thought I'd get it finished for bandomstuffsit! The file was still called bandomstuffsit, even now. /o\ Thanks for reading. <3
posted by [identity profile] at 09:49pm on 04/06/2012
That was the best!
Tomorrow I'm starting from the beginning again.
ext_16050: (Panic - Married boyfriends)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:56am on 12/06/2012
Oh, thank you <333 I'm glad you liked it, bb <3
posted by [identity profile] at 09:50pm on 04/06/2012
I'm honestly flailing around with hearts in my eyes. Brendon wants to marry, not date! Gareth learned new chord! (Gareth <33333) They finally talked, sort of! *claps gleefully like a mad woman*
♥ ♥ ♥
ext_16050: (Panic - lavender!bden in glasses)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:56am on 12/06/2012
I'm so glad you stuck with it all the way through, bb <3 Thanks for reading.
posted by [identity profile] at 10:20pm on 04/06/2012
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
ext_16050: (Panic - Gay Married M&G)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:57am on 12/06/2012
&you; <3333
isweedan: White jittering text "art is the weapon" on red field (Default)
posted by [personal profile] isweedan at 11:51pm on 04/06/2012
::happy sigh::
ext_16050: (Panic - gay married boyfriends)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:57am on 12/06/2012
Thanks, bb <33
posted by [identity profile] at 12:03am on 05/06/2012
OH MY GODDDDDDD. Best best best ending. This was SUCH an enjoyable, wonderful story to read, and this ending was just the best way to cap it off. YAY BOYS <333
ext_16050: (Panic - Brendon reading)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:57am on 12/06/2012
I'm so glad you liked it! Thank you so much for reading <33
posted by [identity profile] at 05:53am on 05/06/2012
This has been the most wonderfully awesome journey. I'm sorry to see it finally end but it was so very worth the wait and the best part is that I get to go back and read it all over again!. You are brilliant darling!
ext_16050: (Panic - Brendon how big this big)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:58am on 12/06/2012
You are brilliant for reading! Thank you <33
posted by [identity profile] at 08:21am on 05/06/2012


ext_16050: (Panic - Brendon grinning at Spencer)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:58am on 12/06/2012
Oh, thank you for reading all the way along, bb <33
posted by [identity profile] at 01:23pm on 05/06/2012
*flails and squeals*
so i just read through this all because i was waiting for it to be finished before starting it and OH MY GOD! this was just perfect and hurty and awesome and i loved it. so so so much. i haven't read anything this awesome in ages!!!!
ext_16050: (Panic - Brendon finger in mouth)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:59am on 12/06/2012
Oh, thank you! I'm really glad you liked it <33
posted by [identity profile] at 03:57am on 06/06/2012
Oh, my heart. This was so lovely.
ext_16050: (Panic - Brendon being adorable)
posted by [identity profile] at 09:59am on 12/06/2012
Thank you, bb <33
posted by [identity profile] at 05:08am on 06/06/2012
This was brilliant, I am so sad it's over.
ext_16050: (Panic - boys)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:00am on 12/06/2012
Thank you for reading! <33
posted by [identity profile] at 07:45am on 06/06/2012
Oh, this was absolutely fabulous! And CHARMING. I just love it so, so, so much. Another fantastic story. Thank you so much for sharing. :)b
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden's eyeliner)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:00am on 12/06/2012
Thank you for reading! And liking it! <33
posted by [identity profile] at 04:14pm on 08/06/2012
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden!face & Spencer)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:00am on 12/06/2012
posted by [identity profile] at 01:58pm on 09/06/2012
I was SO EXCITED when I saw you'd updated this. I LOVED the progression of their relationship, and there were actual physical pains in my chest when Brendon went all weird after they got back.
Beautiful story, well done!
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden stage tie)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:01am on 12/06/2012
aww, thank you! I'm really pleased you liked it. <33
posted by [identity profile] at 03:02pm on 09/06/2012
Oh this is the most, most, most precious adorable story! I can't wait to go re-read it! Faaaavorite boys <3
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden pretend cowboy)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:01am on 12/06/2012
Thank you! <3333 I'm glad you liked it <3333
posted by [identity profile] at 08:10pm on 10/06/2012
God, this is lovely. I don’t think I’ve ever commented on one of your fics, which is such a failing on my part, because your writing is brilliant. The prologue is spectacular, because, honestly, traveling blows and you depict that so well. And Brendon seems so tangible to me in that section. The way he can’t help but give Spencer shit for his screw-up, despite being worn into the ground, is so perfect and feels so in character for them. And dear god, you write pining like no one else. I literally clutched my chest here:

Spencer couldn't breathe. "I really love him," he said, all of a sudden, apropos of nothing at all. He just knew that if he didn't say it here, now, to these people who'd seen them together, then he'd never get to say it. "I love him so much."

And here:

"Be brave," he said softly, into the mirror, and then he turned around and went downstairs, still wearing his boxer shorts and a t-shirt. If he stopped to get dressed he'd lose his courage entirely.

And here:

"Don't say that," he managed. "Please, Jack. Don't make me think I've got a chance."

I’m sorry the writing process sucked for you! From my perspective, the wait was always worth it and would've continued to be worth it even if it took a year to tell this story! This fic brought me five and a half months of joy; thank you so much for that!
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden on stage)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:02am on 12/06/2012
Thank you so much! I'm really glad you liked it. <333

Writing in parts was a change, I think. I usually edit a lot, so it was hard not being able to go back and alter things earlier on in order to fit the direction things were going towards the end, and then I had a massive block in the middle where writing anything seemed too hard, and I put a lot of pressure on myself when I didn't post for ages. But it was nice to post things in chapters.
posted by [identity profile] at 01:37am on 15/06/2012
It's got to be such a challenge as a writer. I've only done academic writing but I can't imagine writing serially like this. I thought you did an amazing job! And you gave me all the Spencer feelings. Alllll of them! :D
ext_16050: (Default)
posted by [identity profile] at 01:05pm on 04/07/2012
Thank you! It was definitely a challenge, but looking back I might do it again :)
ext_16163: (all i wanna be is by your side)
posted by [identity profile] at 03:34am on 03/07/2012
I wanted to let you know that I read this whole thing (yes, I waited patiently for you to finish it so I could read it all at a go) over my own holiday, and I enjoyed it so, so much. It was just lovely, and never felt too long or too cheesy at all! Thanks for the wonderful read!
ext_16050: (Panic - Spencer in red)
posted by [identity profile] at 01:05pm on 04/07/2012
Thank you, lovely. I'm glad you liked it. <3
posted by [identity profile] at 08:48am on 27/07/2012
Omg, this story was fantastic!
When I first read the summary, I thought that maybe you had basically written out the Holiday, but with the band members instead of the original characters. I thought I'd give it a go anyway, and was pleasantly surprised by this!
It's wonderful and adorable and cute, and I often found myself grinning at the computer screen at some parts :D
This was amazing, thank you <3
ext_16050: (Panic - Bden and Spencer cheers)
posted by [identity profile] at 10:09am on 28/07/2012
I'm really glad you liked it, thank you! <33
posted by [identity profile] at 10:39pm on 01/10/2012
ugh. still such a satisfying read. so wonderful. thank you for such a great story.

ext_16050: (Panic - married boyfriends hearthands)
posted by [identity profile] at 06:39pm on 20/10/2012
Thank you, bb. <333 Looking back, this was such a satisfying writing process.
posted by [identity profile] at 10:40am on 14/06/2013
oh my god.

I just now found this fic. I'm so far behind lj, trying to catch fic that's been posted while I was on a break from lj is like finding hen's teeth. And now I have this??!! 74,000 words of your Bren/Spen. My weekend is going to be very, very nice indeed!

ext_16050: (Panic - Bden & Spencer hearrrrrrts)
posted by [identity profile] at 11:42am on 19/06/2013
I'm glad you've found it! I had the best time writing this, although partworks are HARD.